Brilliant Idea…

I’ve had one of my great inspirations!

I get them from time to time and often don’t act upon them. Then many months, or even years later, I see someone else come up with the idea I’d had so much earlier. In one case, it lead someone to several book deals. Other times, I’ve written a proposal only to see someone else implement my idea and get the credit.

Shadowcall can tell you I’ve had a few where we work. He recognizes when I get them as I’m pretty boisterous and make excessive use of my hands when when inspiration hits me.

Alas, much of the time my ideas don’t get fully implemented and it is a little discouraging.

However, I have been inspired.

My mom has pushed and gently prodded me for awhile now to write a fiction novel. I started writing short stories and playing with a writing group about 3 years ago. I enjoy it, but it is more work than I’d ever realized. I also understand now that writing is often not just the work of a single person. There are proofreaders, editors, collaborators, to name a few.

Early last week my mom attempted again to entice me to write. She said she’d be the editor. My mom is a great editor and an even better project manager. She’s also very much into selling books and is herself an avid reader. I thought I would just *humor* her. I asked her questions about the “book.” Things like settings, characters, and the like.

However, things have changed and I’m actually inspired to write the book. I’ll be sharing more about how it will come into being later. For now, though, I need a new blog site and a name for it. The blog shall chronicle the collaborative effort I’m attempting to create.

I’m considering holding a Twitter contest to name the blog. I wonder if an Amazon gift certificate would be an appropriate contest gift for the winner…

 

FEEDBACK, please!

Holding On…

 

So… I am facing my first real significant test.

I just experienced an enormous disappointment. It’s okay though. I’m going to turn this into a victory, somehow. I am going to stay on my diet, I am going to keep exercising. I will beat the urges. Frankly, I don’t have the urge to binge eat. Overeating used to be what I did for comfort. It was a way to stuff down the feelings. Maybe I am just numb right now and those feelings and urges will happen, but I hope not.

Yesterday had a few disappointments as well, they were really rather minor compared to this.

Thank you to all my friends and family for the support you’ve given me over the months and years. You have no idea how much my friends and family mean to me. This is about all I can deal with right now.

More later I’m sure…

~~To know, know, know me…

 

…is to love, love, love me…~~

That’s a song, from way back when. ((apparently Amy Winehouse remade this.)) 

Lots of people really do like me when they get to know me. Not everyone of course, but most do.

I have friends in:

·         the real world

·         MMO worlds

·         the fiction writing world

·         the Twitterverse

·         Facebook

·         roleplaying realms

·         military mama’s

·         Boy Scouts…

Those are just some of the areas in which I’m involved, I have many casual acquaintenances as well.

Here is my challenge; I want to promote my blog so people will read it and comment upon it. I know it seems a little self-serving, but I enjoy sharing my ideas with people. Often I’ll get private messages or email about the blog giving me encouragement and very positive feedback, but that’s not sharing with the other readers.

I really like discussions and forums, so I’m going to begin asking people to join in the topics with comments! I know it’s a little weird because I write about what I’m interested in. This isn’t chatting about me, but instead the topics I’m interested in and passionate about. If you are also interested in them, or have questions, or even disagree let’s talk about it!

I want to bring more people here, I want to share things with all my friends and their friends and find new friends!

Here is MY challenge to YOU! At the minimum, leave a comment to this post. If you blog, be sure to leave a link to it, including what you blog about. I want to know what you are interested in. Let the other readers know your connection to me; there are many of us that have several things in common.

C’mon, give a girl a hand!

Also, if you are struggling with something in your life, check out my Something Different tab at the top.

 

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LISTS!!!

I went back to college at 40; the class I dreaded the most was English Composition. I discovered I am a very good writer. At one point, my teacher said I was so good at writing because I wrote about what I knew. I do write on things I’m passionate about, or tend to have a strong opinion.

I am working to be a better writer and I want to share what I write with others. My current project is working with problogger.net on their 31 Days to Build a Better Blog. You all get to … ummm, reap the benefits… or suffer the torture… you choose, of what I experiment with for the next 30 days. Yesterday was day one, I haven’t shared that with you yet!

We are being challenged to write a list. I love lists! I try to put most of my work emails and reports and others things into lists so people can read the majority of the content easily. To this end, I’m going to create a list of the things I’m currently passionate about! *wicked grins* although you could just look at my blog cloud to see the same thing.

Ready? Set? GO!

·         MMO’s – Massive Multiplayer Online game. Often it’s MMORPG, with the RPG meaning roleplaying game. I love these games. Why? Not so much for the game, but for the Multiplayer part. I LOVE PEOPLE! I’m a social person. I’ve always enjoyed playing games on computer, but add in the social aspect and I’m totally hooked. Not addictively anymore, but it’s so amazing to see people come together to achieve common goals. I build teams and the principles for real life team building absolutely applies here in MMO’s.

o   Star Wars Galaxies (past favorite)

o   Star Trek Online (looking to a near future)

o   World of Warcraft (current)

·         Family – I’m 50 now. I am not oriented on raising my boys any longer, but I am interested in their lives and watching them mature, grow, and supporting them (hopefully not financially) to become the amazing young men I know they can be.

o   Hagardly (writes music and is starting a comic series based on MMOs)

o   Da (pronounced Day. He’s a fiction writer who is incredibly intrigued with the psychology of relationships)

o   Mike (In the Army, and has a true artist’s heart. He plays instruments by ear and wants desperately to be an actor)

o   Mom (terrifically smart woman)

o   Extended (so many, and I love them all, even when they make me crazy)

·         Role Playing – This is the area that I get to still make-believe in. I get to be someone I’d not, but it’s not crazy, it’s accepted and enjoyed by me and others. Star Wars is usually my chosen universe for RP, but I’ve dabbled in Star Trek and it has a tremendous appeal for me.

·         Writing – I’m exploring my new found love of writing. I’ve written short fiction stories that have won an award. I’ve writing dozens of boring technical manuals, but now… I want to explore reaching out to others.

o   Twitter (fast, furious, fun).

o   Blogging (therapeutic)

·         Something Different – The clickable tab at the top of the page. This is my current passion right now.

·         Internet and/or Celebrities – I’ve always been a little fascinated with the entertainment world, from the days of my youth.

o   Felicia Day – She is an incredible young woman. I enjoy following her career because she’s utilized the current technology to make her dreams happen. She’s worked hard and is probably the biggest celebrity on the Internet and will be in other media soon as well if things keep going as they are. She’s a writer, actress, singer, director. Those are things I always wanted to do, and so I feel a certain kinship with her. I’m twice her age, but she’s a role model. She is a gamer girl who is loved and adored by so many people.

I’ve spent time explaining my fascination for her here, because many of the people my age have been asking why I’m so intrigued. This is why: She’s an Awesome Geek Chic!

o   Dr Horrible’s Sing-along Blog – Jos Whedon – what an amazing talent. Firefly, Dollhouse. My boys and I all have the DVD’s for Dr. Horrible. If you haven’t seen it, just stop what you are doing, and go watch it now! It’s on the Internet. DO IT! DO IT NOW!

 

… and that concludes today’s list of Zannniee’s Interests!

 

Victory!

It was only one of many battles; the war isn’t over and won’t be for awhile.

STILL.

IT.

WAS.

A.

VICTORY!

Does it really matter to anyone what my battle was or what my war is? Probably not to too many people, but what I’m learning is to win my war; one battle at a time, even if no one else cares.

What is this war I’m talking about? If you need to satisfy curiousity, click on Something Different at the top of this blog.

Some people have actually clicked on my Something Different tab at the top without any prompting. It’s the area where I’m beginning to document my battles. I’ll win some, lose some. Hopefully there will be more wins than losses and eventually the War will over and I am the victor!

I’ll continue to blog about all the other things I’m passionate about here on the main page. Things like my kids, role playing, MMOs, the celebrities that intrigue me such as Felicia Day ((you *knew* I would put that in there, didn’t you!)) I enjoy the interactions of people and the dynamics. Especially people who’ve never met each other, but still there a connection formed.

I want to write. I want to connect with people. I have more than one battle going on, but the Something Different page is for my current,most difficult War.

Choices…

I'm in good company!

I’m 50!

I know that isn’t earth shattering to any of you. Still, I’m 50. I went into a funk about it months before the actual date. I did NOT want to be 50. Guess what? I didn’t have a choice.

Actually, I have many choices. I can choose what to do with the rest of my life. I decided the main choice is this:

“Start my life now, or die.”

I’m starting my life now! I feel a new motivation. A new energy. A new excitement.

I started a diet almost two weeks ago. However, for the FIRST time, it’s more of a lifestyle change than a diet. The real test came today. I actually chose to pass up Rice Krispie treats. I LOVE those, but today it wasn’t worth it.

So, now it’s time to decide who I am and what motivates me. I am not the fat woman whom people enjoy talking to and laughing with. I’m the woman who is going to be thinner and healthier, whom people enjoy talking to and laughing with.

I’m still a gamer mom. I still enjoy Dr Horrible. I’m still a HUGE Felicia Day fan.

I Tweet, I blog, I play WoW. I’m a Star Trek fan, even more than Star Wars. I roleplay, I write fiction.

I’m a geek. I enjoy the challenges of SharePoint. I like troubleshooting and giving the solutions to someone else to manage.

I love to read, I like puzzles and solving mysteries.

I am the mother to 3 amazing boys.

I think there is more to me than even these things. My life is my own. I have choices.

I’m 50!

 

((I’m pretty sure I need a 50th Anniversary Barbie now…))

Staying in Touch…

I don’t know what direction to take. I have several ideas and a few posts started in my drafts folder.

My thoughts are turning to my future now. I will be 50 in less that two months. My youngest son just left for college. There is this big house and me and Hagardly, my middlemost son. I don’t expect Hagardly to stay too much longer, but then again, who really knows.

I want to do something meaningful, fun, exciting. I don’t know that that is. So, until I figure it out I’ll be playing WoW, blogging, Tweeting, and sending spaceships to their doom (AstroEmpires.)

I’m going to look into doing something with my voice. I’m told it’s a huge asset of mine…

End of the Beginning or Beginning of the End…

There is a term In MMO’s. Capping. This means hitting the limit. In WoW terms this could mean capping out the new level of 80. Years It’s when you reach the goal and can’t go any further.

Or can you? Just because I hit 80, doesn’t mean I’m done. However, it *felt* like I should be done. It was almost anti-climactic. YaY! I’m 80! Bleh, I’m 80, now what?

You really can’t savor it long, it’s fleeting. Why? Well, in WoW, you can now go and do harder dungeons or instances. But wait, you really can’t because you are not geared well enough to do the harder instances. So the grinding and farming starts. It’s boring. So the end is just the beginning.

Kinda like my son leaving for college. It’s the end of his time at home, but is it also the beginning of something else?

I’m a people person. I want to do things with people.

Kinda weird though, I want to do things with people, and I do. But I do it by sitting alone in my room.

Okay, time for some psych eval…

My dream…

… or hope, or desire.

Yeah, I’d really like to have a few things settled in my life.

My school loans paid off. Do you know that I loved going back to school at the age of 40. However, I am in Kansas and the idea of making enough money to be able to pay them back is laughable. Well, it’s laughable between the tears of frustration.

Worth it at 40+?

My sons independent and happy. They are mostly independent. They are usually happy. Except my oldest son recently married and it was a mistake. I saw it was going to be a mistake, but how do you tell him that? Instead I supported him in his decisions. Now I’m supporting him in the aftermath. (If any of you pray, please add our family to your list.)

Don't tell anyone, but...

My weight down. I need to lose lots of weight. I have high blood pressure and when my weight is down, my blood pressure is normal.  Yes, everyone, this is my not so secret, secret. Why does it seem everytime I get serious about weight loss the other, stressful problems arise?

The order I placed those isn’t in any order of importance. If it were, my sons would be at the top.