Choices…

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I’m 50!

I know that isn’t earth shattering to any of you. Still, I’m 50. I went into a funk about it months before the actual date. I did NOT want to be 50. Guess what? I didn’t have a choice.

Actually, I have many choices. I can choose what to do with the rest of my life. I decided the main choice is this:

“Start my life now, or die.”

I’m starting my life now! I feel a new motivation. A new energy. A new excitement.

I started a diet almost two weeks ago. However, for the FIRST time, it’s more of a lifestyle change than a diet. The real test came today. I actually chose to pass up Rice Krispie treats. I LOVE those, but today it wasn’t worth it.

So, now it’s time to decide who I am and what motivates me. I am not the fat woman whom people enjoy talking to and laughing with. I’m the woman who is going to be thinner and healthier, whom people enjoy talking to and laughing with.

I’m still a gamer mom. I still enjoy Dr Horrible. I’m still a HUGE Felicia Day fan.

I Tweet, I blog, I play WoW. I’m a Star Trek fan, even more than Star Wars. I roleplay, I write fiction.

I’m a geek. I enjoy the challenges of SharePoint. I like troubleshooting and giving the solutions to someone else to manage.

I love to read, I like puzzles and solving mysteries.

I am the mother to 3 amazing boys.

I think there is more to me than even these things. My life is my own. I have choices.

I’m 50!

 

((I’m pretty sure I need a 50th Anniversary Barbie now…))

End of the Beginning or Beginning of the End…

There is a term In MMO’s. Capping. This means hitting the limit. In WoW terms this could mean capping out the new level of 80. Years It’s when you reach the goal and can’t go any further.

Or can you? Just because I hit 80, doesn’t mean I’m done. However, it *felt* like I should be done. It was almost anti-climactic. YaY! I’m 80! Bleh, I’m 80, now what?

You really can’t savor it long, it’s fleeting. Why? Well, in WoW, you can now go and do harder dungeons or instances. But wait, you really can’t because you are not geared well enough to do the harder instances. So the grinding and farming starts. It’s boring. So the end is just the beginning.

Kinda like my son leaving for college. It’s the end of his time at home, but is it also the beginning of something else?

I’m a people person. I want to do things with people.

Kinda weird though, I want to do things with people, and I do. But I do it by sitting alone in my room.

Okay, time for some psych eval…

Here’s the deal…

I find I’m constantly saying this to my kids or co-workers. *grins* Do you have phrases you say all the time?

The interesting thing about “Here’s the deal…” is that it really isn’t a deal. Is more of a statement and not really open for discussion.

I realized I got the phrase, “Here’s the deal…” from her ’cause she used it just the other day. I love my mom, she’s amazing. 

Mom’s amazing because she has the ability to start businesses on less than a shoestring. She’s amazing with money. (OMG, I’ve now used the word amazing three ((technically 4)) times now!) She kept those money-wise genes though, saving them for my youngest son, Day. I’m not good with money at all.

She’s organized, I’m not.

She’s thin, I’m not.

She’s a gorgeous red-head, I’m not.

She’s smart…Okay, I’m smart too, but not in the same ways.

A weekend or so ago, I started talking about a business idea I have with my mom and two of my sons. I’m excited about it and I think they are too. My middle son, Hagardly (no, I didn’t name him that), came in my room later to discuss money and how everyone would be compensated. He’s ever the entreprenuer, and oh so bold.

What did I do after that discussion? I called my mom, of course! She agreed to deal with the practical side of the business, aka, finances.

Someday, I’ll tell the story of my mom and how she single-handedly made the training company New Horizons what it is today.

For now however, do you have any catch phrases you use? What about an amazing mom story? Oh yeah, and I’m going to soon come clean about my non-secret secret and also tell you why Shadowcall gave me a bunch of “asshole” points today. *giggles* sorry mom. I do love you!