Brand New Day…

There is a song in Dr. Horrible’s Sing-Along Blog called “Brand New Day”. I love that song. If you listen to the words, the hero… ummm, villain…; okay Dr Horrible, makes his commitment to the Dark Side ((to borrow a Star Wars term)) and begins singing the song with great resolve. When Billy ((Dr. Horrible’s version of Clark Kent)) gets to the chorus he sings: It’s a brand new day and the sun is high All the birds are singing that you’re gonna die How I hesitated now I wonder why It’s a brand new day   I kinda leave out the gonna die part though. I’ll often be found singing it often at the beginning of many of my days and starting my good morning tweets with the phrase, “It’s a Brand New Day!” Today is a brand new day for me. I had a huge disappointment yesterday, but today I chose to keep on track with my life. I refused to let depression set in. It’s strange, a few short months ago I could feel the depression sitting there, waiting for me to embrace it, but it isn’t there this time. I cried a bit yesterday, howeverI think the crying was cathartic; cleansing; a time of mourning. But today is… A Brand New Day! I’m in a great mood; I have a smile on my face. I’m accomplishing things. Yes it is… A BRAND NEW DAY!!!! ((List of victories are on Something Different))

Victory!

It was only one of many battles; the war isn’t over and won’t be for awhile.

STILL.

IT.

WAS.

A.

VICTORY!

Does it really matter to anyone what my battle was or what my war is? Probably not to too many people, but what I’m learning is to win my war; one battle at a time, even if no one else cares.

What is this war I’m talking about? If you need to satisfy curiousity, click on Something Different at the top of this blog.

Some people have actually clicked on my Something Different tab at the top without any prompting. It’s the area where I’m beginning to document my battles. I’ll win some, lose some. Hopefully there will be more wins than losses and eventually the War will over and I am the victor!

I’ll continue to blog about all the other things I’m passionate about here on the main page. Things like my kids, role playing, MMOs, the celebrities that intrigue me such as Felicia Day ((you *knew* I would put that in there, didn’t you!)) I enjoy the interactions of people and the dynamics. Especially people who’ve never met each other, but still there a connection formed.

I want to write. I want to connect with people. I have more than one battle going on, but the Something Different page is for my current,most difficult War.

My dream…

… or hope, or desire.

Yeah, I’d really like to have a few things settled in my life.

My school loans paid off. Do you know that I loved going back to school at the age of 40. However, I am in Kansas and the idea of making enough money to be able to pay them back is laughable. Well, it’s laughable between the tears of frustration.

Worth it at 40+?

My sons independent and happy. They are mostly independent. They are usually happy. Except my oldest son recently married and it was a mistake. I saw it was going to be a mistake, but how do you tell him that? Instead I supported him in his decisions. Now I’m supporting him in the aftermath. (If any of you pray, please add our family to your list.)

Don't tell anyone, but...

My weight down. I need to lose lots of weight. I have high blood pressure and when my weight is down, my blood pressure is normal.  Yes, everyone, this is my not so secret, secret. Why does it seem everytime I get serious about weight loss the other, stressful problems arise?

The order I placed those isn’t in any order of importance. If it were, my sons would be at the top.